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Amnesty

Was born innocently
Corrupted quickly
In a corrupt family
Drugs
Alcohol
Lies, abuse
Cheating and violence
Covered up with (silence)
This is what I digested
“You are what you eat”
No surprise at what was manifested
Attempting to purge it everyday

Broken
With a mask that said I had it together
But inside unraveling
Emotions as unpredictable as the weather
Skin as tough a leather
Protection=self-preservation
Self hatred
Low self esteem

unable to properly express
unable to process
I made a multitude of mistakes
hurt myself and others

Now
as I am working on myself
still making mistakes
I asked for forgiveness
have been forgave
and in this chaos
of correction and healing myself and the wounds I caused
I seek Amnesty


Ugly

Hypocrite
Delusional
Simple-minded
Casual
Pseudo-intellectual
Hiding behind a mask of niceties
But shackled down by your hypocrisies
Please
Ignore my ignorance
Didn’t know you were so
Ignorant
Dependent on your illusion
White Anglo-Saxon christian
Not the least repentant
Of the daily thoughts you hide
But swear up and down
That you’re…..
PURE
Angry when the truth is approached
You recoil
Or stick your head in the sand
Don’t be angry with me
Just listen to me
If I’m not talking about you then calm down
All white people aren’t bad
All Christians aren’t bad
All black people aren’t bad
All __________ aren’t bad
I am just angry
I am just frustrated
I am just sad
That WE deflect
Deny
Lie
That we are hypocrites
That we are a flawed people
And in the period of my life
I am seeing things
Oh, I am seeing things
Clearly
And it is real ugly